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I Continue to Hate the Hunt
Jun. 2nd, 2017 09:58 amI mentioned last post a job interview. It was last Tuesday. It went...okay. It was, what I am coming to think of as a "let's get the basics out of the way" interview. The interviewer was the HR, not anyone doing the specific hiring. She made it seem like there were a like of directors and managers looking for job positions to fill in the area I was looking for work (admin/clerical), but she also seemed a little inattentive, which she said was sleepiness caused by the sound of the rain.
I dunno, though, someone being sleepy during your interview doesn't bode well, even if she said she'd pass my resume and whatnot on to the managers and she'd call me back to set up a second interview if any of them were interested.
I know I am in a tough spot because my work history is heavy on editing and teaching (both of which, is my eyes, would count as "clerical" experience), and the 2 years of customer service a bit farther in the past. But I feel like I have the skills, and I keep thinking, "Just give me a chance." I want a job where I can stay with a company for a long time, something that is enjoyable and challenging, full of good people and supervisors who appreciate the work their people do. A company where I can grow within it. I don't feel like that should be asking too much, but no matter how close I get, eventually it's a no, or silence, and I'm not quite sure where I'm going wrong.
Anyway, so this past Tuesday I went to meet with a staffing agency, also connected to them through the job fair in mid-May. The person I'd met, who had my info and had scheduled this meeting, never showed. I was finally introduced to another recruiter, who knew nothing about me and didn't have anything prepared (because even they didn't know why the person I was supposed to meet wasn't there. Finally, the receptionist texted her, and when this other recruiter came out, she said the missing one was at a doctors appointment). So it turned into another "let's get the basics out of the way" with the very small addition of my asking why the process is like. I learned so little from that meeting, it doesn't feel worth the bus fare I had to pay to get there. And then she said the missing person would call me later that same day, and I have yet to hear from anyone at that company. Not a call, a text, nor an email.
So that's sort of frustrating. I'm inclined to shrug and say, if they call me, they call me. And if they don't? To keep searching on my own in the meantime.
***
There's a tumblr post I like, where friend A told friend B to "man up," and friend B didn't like that and asked them to use a phrase that wasn't so gendered and sexist. Friend A came up with "Fortify!"
And I like that.
I hold that in my heart for those moments when I can feel my anxieties pulling me back, tucking me into a ball that says "it's not going to work out anyway, so why even try?" "Fortify" is Gandalf holding his ground, it's refusing to be pushed over and made small by the Balrog of my anxieties.
So when something disappointing happens, especially as I try to find a FT permanent job, I say to myself "Fortify," straighten my shoulders and find one small thing to do to move a little closer to my goal.
I dunno, though, someone being sleepy during your interview doesn't bode well, even if she said she'd pass my resume and whatnot on to the managers and she'd call me back to set up a second interview if any of them were interested.
I know I am in a tough spot because my work history is heavy on editing and teaching (both of which, is my eyes, would count as "clerical" experience), and the 2 years of customer service a bit farther in the past. But I feel like I have the skills, and I keep thinking, "Just give me a chance." I want a job where I can stay with a company for a long time, something that is enjoyable and challenging, full of good people and supervisors who appreciate the work their people do. A company where I can grow within it. I don't feel like that should be asking too much, but no matter how close I get, eventually it's a no, or silence, and I'm not quite sure where I'm going wrong.
Anyway, so this past Tuesday I went to meet with a staffing agency, also connected to them through the job fair in mid-May. The person I'd met, who had my info and had scheduled this meeting, never showed. I was finally introduced to another recruiter, who knew nothing about me and didn't have anything prepared (because even they didn't know why the person I was supposed to meet wasn't there. Finally, the receptionist texted her, and when this other recruiter came out, she said the missing one was at a doctors appointment). So it turned into another "let's get the basics out of the way" with the very small addition of my asking why the process is like. I learned so little from that meeting, it doesn't feel worth the bus fare I had to pay to get there. And then she said the missing person would call me later that same day, and I have yet to hear from anyone at that company. Not a call, a text, nor an email.
So that's sort of frustrating. I'm inclined to shrug and say, if they call me, they call me. And if they don't? To keep searching on my own in the meantime.
***
There's a tumblr post I like, where friend A told friend B to "man up," and friend B didn't like that and asked them to use a phrase that wasn't so gendered and sexist. Friend A came up with "Fortify!"
And I like that.
I hold that in my heart for those moments when I can feel my anxieties pulling me back, tucking me into a ball that says "it's not going to work out anyway, so why even try?" "Fortify" is Gandalf holding his ground, it's refusing to be pushed over and made small by the Balrog of my anxieties.
So when something disappointing happens, especially as I try to find a FT permanent job, I say to myself "Fortify," straighten my shoulders and find one small thing to do to move a little closer to my goal.